Neutral Room

by Hadassah Grace

Some days I barely feel alive
They ask me how I am
But there’s not much going on inside
So I say I’m fine
I guess I’m alright
Cuz I’m not crying but I’m up all night

And there’s no rain and there’s no sun
And I could never love someone
Cuz all I am is numb
Coming undone
And falling through this neutral room
This neutral room

There’s no ups but there’s no downs
I’m washing all the colors out
And no one comes inside this house the way that they used to
All I am is empty space
But there’s no room inside this place
To let anymore hearts through

I’ll just play it safe in my neutral room

Outside life spins faster
They’re lost in their laughter
And things just keep on moving the way that they do
While I stand still
In this neutral room

And there’s no rain and there’s no sun
And I will never love someone
And there’s no sun and there’s no rain
And I refuse to feel the pain I do
In my neutral room

And there’s no rain and there’s no sun
But I won’t ever lose someone
And I refuse to feel the love I do
In this neutral room

There’s no ups and there’s no downs
This empty house is home for now
Come and pull it down I’m begging you

All I want is out of this neutral room